And about three o’clock Jesus cried with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” (Matthew 27:46)
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from helping me, from the words of my groaning? (Psalm 22:1)
Our life can become a process of accumulation and possession. In order to fill the spiritual need we feel, we acquire things. It is easy to see the material accumulation in our lives in the things we purchase and own: car, house, boat, books, furniture, toys, computers, phones, exercise equipment, tools, etc. Many of the things we acquire are practical and serve useful purposes. Too often we realize that what was once a perceived need turns into a burden to maintain. We do the same thing with ideas and the things we believe. We collect ideas because they reinforce who we believe we are. At some point we begin to understand that in many situations, less is more. We start to shed those things that no longer serve us. We often need to let go of our idea of what is right or wrong, or we need to let go of what we believe about someone in order to accept a new way of being in relationship to them. As parents we need to recognize that our children grow older and mature, and if we continue to treat them the same way we treated them as adolescents, it harms our relationship. We hold on to things that helped us understand who we are, but sometimes we fail to recognize our own need to be made new.
On our spiritual journey we eventually learn to discard anything that gets in the way of our relationship to God. In a final act of emptying ourselves, there is that moment when we might fear that we have given up too much, or that we have given up something essential to our survival. But our greatest need is for the life that God gives us, and we finally come to the point where nothing else can satisfy that need. As all of our possessions are released, as we recognize that we do not own anything of value without first surrendering to God, in that moment of emptiness, God pours all of God’s being and consciousness into us.
Holy God, we fill ourselves with so many things trying to satisfy our need for you. Help us to let go of the things we try to possess. Let us drop our attachment to anything that hinders our ability to acknowledge your presence. Fill our hunger with your love and truth. Help us to see ourselves with compassion. In those moments when we want to grasp and hold on to anything other than your love, may we release ourselves completely to your care, trusting that you will give us the strength and nourishment necessary for our lives. Amen.
From The Readings
2012-232 First we must adjust the prayer [Cayce, 1942] that Jeffrey has been using for so long, and this may be of help to him in understanding what is happening to him. Listen carefully to the words as they are spoken:
Not my will, but Thine, O Lord, be done in me and through me. Let me ever be a channel of blessings, today, now, to those that I contact in every way. Let my going in, my coming out be in accord with that Thou would have me do, and as the call comes, “Here am I, send me, use me.” [p. 18]
Jeffrey’s life and the transformation and change can be understood in the words of this prayer. What does it mean to be a channel of blessings? We are not seeing or speaking only in the material realm of the things that he says and does, but through him, through the channel, there will be blessings. And as the call comes we see that there is the need to respond to the call, to his call, his purpose. This prayer cannot be used thousands of times without having an effect on the material body, the physical body, the spiritual body, and the mind. The mind, though not 100 percent attuned to the call, still manifests characteristics of this call in the constant search for knowledge and understanding. This is the part of the seeking in Jeffrey—the seeking that listens and accepts the constant stream of information that comes through him internally and comes to him externally. At this point in time we are seeing, and Jeffrey will be feeling, an acceleration of the process. There will be a stripping away of the nonessentials, especially in his relationships, to the point where some relationships will be entirely stripped away. There is no need for Jeffrey to feel any obligation to anyone. There is the greater obligation to his purpose and to the things that he teaches.